I’ve
 had a tag-along ride to work with me every morning this week. And he 
returns home with me, too. And I think the seven miles each way clipping
 along at 30 miles per hour must be pretty taxing for the little fella, 
but, yet, each morning, he's there, waiting for me to take off. 
A
 spider has claimed the truck’s outside mirror and driver’s door as his 
domain. He doesn’t bother me, even though he is a spider, because he 
hunkers down and hides behind the mirror when I open the door. 
His
 web takes a serious beating from the wind. As does he. At 30 MPH that 
web is jumping and he's hanging on for dear life. Not pretty at all and I
 kept expecting to see him flung from his super strong web into certain 
death. But he hangs on, day after day. He’s either an adrenaline junkie,
 thinks he scores better hot, fast food than the average spider, doesn’t
 know any better, or refuses to consider that there are safer yet 
infinitely more satisfying ways to live life. Or maybe it is that insanity thing I 
already mentioned. The definition of insanity? Doing the same things and
 expecting different results. (That’s the socially functional insane, 
the others are varied and nasty and we don’t want to meet them in dark 
alleys…spider or otherwise…shudder.) 
Why
 would a spider continue rebuilding a web on an object that randomly 
takes off at high speeds? Any bug that manages to hit the web at 30 MPH 
is likely going to put a big hole through the web. Maybe the spider 
wants to work on his catching arm? But even then, there are better, less
 dangerous ways to do that, too. 
I don't know whether to admire him for his perseverance or place him in an inpatient facility. 
Oddly,
 he may remind me of people I know, a category to which I might belong. 
Sometimes we are stubborn to an insane level, aren't we? Why would I let
 the crazy windstorms buffet me, wreck my peace and rattle my brain when
 it might be an issue I could just let go of? How about clinging to 
insecurity or beliefs about who I am and what I have to offer the world,
 even when others tell me I'm crazy to hang onto the two or three 
comments that made me believe I have no worth in an area. Or refusing to
 forgive someone until they say the right words from the script I've 
written and keep hidden in my heart. Or bitterness over 
__________________________________________ (fill in the blank). Or 
refusing to live this big, amazing life until I complete 
___________________________ (fill in the blank). 

 
After
 I arrived at work yesterday I found out a fatality happened in an area 
where & and I regularly walk the dogs. A woman went out to take her 
early morning walk, another was headed somewhere in her car. The sun was
 rising, bright and blinding, and a fatal connection was made. Two 
lives changed in a heartbeat, two women who probably didn't wake up and say, "Today, my life 
will be forever altered." as they crossed the threshold into their 
futures. They likely just went about their business, not knowing what 
the next minute might hold. 
I
 want to take lessons from these two very different scenarios. 
Perseverance is a thing of beauty when you are talking about Olympic 
athletes, choosing to do the difficult things to make a better life, 
sticking out a relationship that is a commitment and maybe a little 
bogged down but not poisonous. But stubbornness might very well be 
insanity in disguise. 
    
And,
 I have no promises that tomorrow is mine, that it will be beautiful, 
that I will be able to see the sun set. If tomorrow was my last day on 
earth, what would I want it to look like? What would I want to leave 
behind in the hearts, minds and souls of those who knew me? Do I know 
what happens to the essence of me after I die?  Do I have an emotional 
or relational list that I will leave unfinished, incomplete, or torn to 
shreds? And am I okay with all my answers to those questions? 
I hope 
your day is altered only by blessings and goodness today.