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Change. I've learned to embrace it, ride it out til the end. Sometimes I'm kicking and screaming, other times weeping with my eyes clinched tight. Once in awhile I ride like a dog in a car, head out the window snorting what life has to offer. Mother to young adult children, a marriage of thirty years, and a desert to mountain to valley waltz with God have shaped me into someone I never imagined I'd be. Life is short and I want to live it. Tears, sighs, laughter and change. Every morsel granted to me. Scrambled, shaken or stirred.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Scribbles and Scrambles - Waving

My favorite moments...no matter how brightly the sun shines or how dry the skies are...involve waves.

When we've been to the ocean, I've not curled up on the beach with a book to catch rays, or loved the excursions into cute shops as much as I've longed to wander the beach.

The wet sand squishing between my toes and my footprints trailing behind me, marking where I've been, intersected by shore birds -- ahhh -- just thinking about it relaxes me and I can almost hear the surf pounding... No, that's actually my computer fan.

But the lake does the same thing to my soul. Even though I prefer the sand between my toes (okay, I won't EVEN walk through seaweed or water green enough I can't see what lurks beneath -- I'm trying to make a point here. ) and the expanse of monochromatic greys to blue, I am content with the deep green of the lake.

I've decided it's the waves and the expansiveness of the body of water that do it for me.

I think they remind me of God. Maybe even my future with Him. He talks about oceans, quite a bit, actually. And a vast field of untameable, tumultous, full-of-life-water reminds me of how very tiny I am.

I'm okay with that. I can be tiny when my Creator is so huge that He created the seas, and set boundaries for them, and buries my sins in their depths. Yeah, I'm really okay with that.


Anonymous said...

When I was in college we had an acting exercise where we had to imagine our favorite real life place to be and completely recreate it in our mind. We were in our "relaxing" pose while we had to picture every detail, scent, and feeling. My special place was "the Lakes" where I grew up and spent every minute of my summers. Thank goodness for this exercise because shortly after college my precious "Lakes" were taken from my family. But I am still able to visit there. It is so easy. I sit back and close my eyes, and feel the summer sun warming my skin, see the cotton falling from the trees, smell the woody lake water, hear the geese and swans calling for dinner and the patter of a boat in the distance. It instantly brings me peace and calm. This "centering" exercise for the theatre has carried over into every aspect of my life for the past 17 years.

I know exactly what you are saying about water!

Timothy Fish said...

I know I won't care then, but that is one thing that I can't imagine liking about the New Heaven and New Earth. Saddly, the oceans are going away. And I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no more sea. - Revelation 21:1 I'm hoping that even with no "seas" that we will have a few lakes and big rivers when that time comes. I guess we will just have to enjoy them while we can.

Kelly Klepfer said...

Ahh, I'm not alone.

I always wondered where you "went" when I was going on and on about something stupid, X-ta. Ha.

And Timothy, I'm 99% sure that if God decides not to have a sea, He's going to give me some other goosebump-making, soothing immenseness to make me praise Him.

And there will be a river,

Revelation 22:
1 Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb 2 down the middle of the great street of the city. On each side of the river stood the tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, yielding its fruit every month. And the leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations.

Now that sounds...uh...heavenly!

Heather Smith said...

I'm okay with that too! I'm more of a mountains girl, but I think it's for the same reason. Looking at the vastness of a mountain range and knowing that God holds even the hugest mountain in His hands is something that completely blows my mind!