Change. I've learned to embrace it, ride it out til the end. Sometimes I'm kicking and screaming, other times weeping with my eyes clinched tight. Once in awhile I ride like a dog in a car, head out the window snorting what life has to offer. Mother to young adult children, a marriage of thirty years, and a desert to mountain to valley waltz with God have shaped me into someone I never imagined I'd be. Life is short and I want to live it. Tears, sighs, laughter and change. Every morsel granted to me. Scrambled, shaken or stirred.
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Apparently, I've hit a patch of melancholy. It happens -- far too often during some seasons. I'll try to keep it contained to a small slick so you don't slip in it.
I'm reading the book I mentioned yesterday called "One Month to Live..." Each of its thirty chapters start with two quotes. I happen to love quotes. Looking around my living room, I can count ten items with a quote or a saying or a statement about life. A primitive wall hanging right across from me shares Proverbs 24: 3-4 By wisdom a house is built, and by understanding it is established: by knowledge it's rooms are filled with rare and beautiful treasures.
Over my left shoulder is the wooden sign stating, "Dwell in possibility" Emily Dickinson
Sometimes, when the house is clean and the clutter doesn't cover these favorite items, I stop what I'm in the middle of doing, take a deep breath, read the words and ponder what they mean to my life, right now.
When I decided to write, to take it seriously, my mother bought me a giant pencil that says "Write On." I wonder if I shouldn't have a sign above my bed saying, "Seize the day." But since I stumble around before the first cup of coffee, there would be a loss of effectiveness.
Bottom line. I don't want to squander what God has invested in me.
I'll leave you with two quotes from the book. Do they speak to you? What can you do today to live life to its fullest in the areas you've embraced? I can't answer for you. But I'm going to keep on learning and growing and giving today. And tomorrow, too.
The measure of a life, after all, is not its duration but its donation.
Corrie Ten Boom
I don't want to get to the end of my life and find that I have just lived the length of it. I want to have lived the width of it as well.